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A quick update
Today’s post will just be a bit of a ramble really but I’m working on getting myself into a routine to fit in everything I want to do and to actually write planned blog posts. Going to have to bear with me for the time being.
I don’t exactly know what I’m writing today but I know I need to write something so I don’t get annoyed with myself for not doing my work. I have been quite busy having started a new job after I started my no-spend year. So the no spend year went completely out the window and I did try again from the first of September, instead, I got far too tired with it being the summer holidays and working 5 days a week from nothing in a very physical job (working as a housekeeper in a hotel).
Sometimes life gets in the way
The problem is when I get like that I start to make mistakes and my mental health slowly goes down the drain. Last weekend that resulted in a panic attack at work. I realized I need to find a healthy balance and also focus on myself for a year at least, I will meet people as friends but after talking to a few people I really don’t think I’m ready to date. I need to learn to love myself as I’m not going back to that depressed anxious mess ever again and I’m not being treated badly or going to stand for people pushing me around or toxic people. I’m not afraid anymore. I’ve come so far this year especially and have so many people I love in my life.
I feel very tired and drained. I know I need to eat healthier and I really want to focus on my no-spend year again while improving myself and learning to live alone. I’m still aiming to save to go to Cornwall and Amsterdam next year. I haven’t managed to save anything yet as had my MOT and that wiped my bank out. That’s life at the end of the day. Things happen and don’t always go to plan and I’m accepting that and moving on.
On a positive note
Creative Writing short course has started and invested in some new makeup. So I had a good night on Friday experimenting with a new look and went to the seaside. I also can swim half a mile (32 lengths) now from a few years ago of not being able to swim and teaching myself. Shows you can do anything if you put your mind to it.
Until next time…
I will (hopefully) update you next week with that meal plan I promised a while ago. Until then, thank you for reading and please remember to follow my Facebook page here as sometimes I update on there and do random Facebook lives when I’m feeling brave. Ellie aka The Nutty Squirrel xxx